My little sunshine...

I can't wait for the day where I can run around with her and play!! It is so hard watching her play from my bed or the couch. She keeps saying "momma's tired". YEP...that's an understatement! Please be praying that the Lord would protect her little heart during this...it is so hard not being able to be the mom I want to be. I am so thankful for her little smile and laugh...and this girl loves to sing!! She sings non-stop.

Love y'all,
Lindsey

Feeling hopeful....

I feel like this week has been one little thing after the other of God just giving me glimpses of hope. Trust me, I still feel awful and exhausted...but not hopeless. I am trying to wake up each day and just thank God for all the things I am grateful for....instead of dreading the rest of my day. Because honestly, a few weeks ago...I did not want to face another day. I have always had compassion on people that get to crazy, low points in their life and want to give up...but never thought I would be there. For those of you that know anything about lyme disease, you understand that is does affect parts of your brain, memory, etc...so, I have literally been fighting a battle in my mind along with the physical affects of the disease.

I went back to the specialist this week and we had to talk through all of the new options that I have. We can't use oral antibiotics anymore because it was attacking my stomach in horrific ways. So, I had 3 options. The first was to go into the office twice a week to get antibiotics shots. The second option is the one I have been dreading hearing about since the first day I started researching....which would be wearing an IV bag of antibiotics on my arm for a long period of time. The third option is that my doctor works with another "natural" specialist who has actually gotten pretty good results with lyme patients. For right now, I am choosing option 3 (it is the cheapest of the 3 options)....and it is not as hard on my body. We will see how the next month or two goes...and then revisit what needs to happen next.

I want to thank ya'll SO MUCH for the encouragement....a few of you have donated money to me just because you care!! IT MEANS THE WORLD TO ME!! Thank you so much for praying and for being so generous. Again, it is God showing me that HE IS GOING TO PROVIDE...I so easily get freaked out by all of the doctor's bills. But, He knows.

Love you all,
Lindsey

P.S. If you want to buy any of my items (I will be adding new stuff soon)....just e-mail me and whoever does it first, will get it!! Then, you can click on the DONATE button and pay for the item(s). Hope that makes sense!

The Limited Cropped Green Jacket- SOLD

I wore this jacket one time (looks brand new)! It is so pretty in person...it has a lot of shine to it! It would be perfect for fall.

Size: Small
55% Nylon
45% Polyester


SUGGESTED VALUE: $20

NEW Kensie Girl Turkish Coffee Jacket- SOLD

This jacket is so great....the pictures don't do it justice! Let me know if you have any questions.

BRAND NEW WITH TAGS!
Retail Value: $89
Size: Large (fits like a medium because of junior fit)
70% Acrylic
30% Wool


SUGGESTED VALUE: $30

My life and lyme....

I'm not sure where to even begin. It has been a crazy journey over the last 3 or 4 years (really 6 but who's counting)! My family went through an incredible amount of stress and pain about 6 years ago....and from that time until today, my body seemed to lose energy by the day. I remember telling my husband Chris that something was just NOT RIGHT. I had mono about 9 years ago....and this definitely felt like what I had experienced. I went to different doctors and was told that I was depressed and had anxiety. So, for six years I have tried every anti-depressant on the market....some made me feel a thousand times worse and then the one I have been on for 3 years has not made me feel any better or worse, so I have stuck with it. My body continued to gain weight....and a lot of it. For about 2 years, I have dealt with rapid heart flutters (which concerned me)....but had EKG's and nothing showed up. I was told it was just probably anxiety. Then, over the last half of a year my body began to ache. My joints would hurt in crazy places....my hands and arms would go to sleep and I began experiencing a ton of pain. I remember telling me mom about all of these latest symptoms and her telling me that I really needed another opinion.

I think I just got to a point where I had decided that I was dying. I know that sounds drastic. But, I kept telling people that I really didn't feel depressed. I just felt every single day like I had pulled an all-nighter in college and NO AMOUNT of sleep would make me feel rested. Doctors would do blood tests and everything would be normal. I was told "You're a new mom of a 3 year old....this is just how it is." I can't tell you how many times I walked out of the doctor's office feeling overwhelmed, defeated, and hopeless. I begged God for answers. So, in early June, I went to a different doctor and told her all of my symptoms. I just burst out crying and said, "Something is so wrong with me.....I feel like I'm dying." She listened....and started writing. She looked at me and said, "It sounds like you have Lyme disease....have you been bitten by a tick." WHAT?!!!!

Fast forward, the test was POSITIVE!! I have had it for years....the last time I remember being bit by a tick was at Kanakuk Kamps in 2001. I didn't know anything about this disease. The more I have read and researched....the more my heart is broken for the thousands of people suffering. It is a very misunderstood and controversial disease. For most people, if you take anti-biotics right after the tick bites you, you will be totally fine and okay. But, there is a percentage of us that have had it for a long time and it could take YEARS of treatment to "cure" the disease. Without going into a lot of detail, treatment is very costly and most insurance companies don't want to pay for chronic lyme disease. So, my prayer is simple....healing! And, I want others to understand the disease and spread awareness.

This site is to document my journey. I am not a doctor and don't claim to have any answers...this is just about me. I decided that I could start selling my things that I don't need to raise money for my medical expenses (and to help others suffering with lyme). My prayer is that God will be glorified even in the midst of this painful time in my life. I am so thankful to the hundreds of people already praying for me.

Love you all,
Lindsey